What happens when you have found the perfect theorem to describe nature? You worked your whole life to discover and compose the one theorem that perfectly describes all of science. With it you can make perfect predictions about anything that will ever happen or has ever happened.

A seasoned scientist will tell you such a theorem does not yet exist. Superstring theory (M-Theory) goes a long way but Calabi-Yau manifold abundanness causes some trouble for answering even a basic question such as why the electron has the mass it has been measured to possess? Regardless, if such a theory were to be discovered, it would be pretty amazing.

However, consider what happens when that theory is discovered amongst a sea of false theories, limited theories. It would be subject to intense scrutiny because scientists would want to be sure that it is consistent. The problem with scrutiny is that sometimes it can lead to false negatives. Meaning sometimes one can over scrutinize something and find a problem where no problem exists. And if the scientist making that claim is prominent enough, it might even overthrow the theory. A perfect theory. Nobody would ever know.

Sometimes with life one finds the one thing you have lost that means more than anything, even your own child. I am not talking about love. You find it and reclaim it. You gloat in proudness and contentment because you have beaten the odds. But, as with anything you have lost, it is fragile. There is a reason why you have lost it in the first place. So when you had to endure almost a year of ups and downs to maintain that find, but STILL have beaten the odds one tends to be complacent. Until that one dreaded day that you lose your find because of a lack in judgement. You lose it because you became arrogant and assumed it is resilient.

Since life is not always gentle, sometimes it can shake loose what you hold on to. And couple of days later you realise what you have lost. And you realise that that is the one sacred thing you are absolutely not allowed to lose. But you did. And then everything is undone. Everything you worked for is gone. Because once lost, you have no right to reclaim it. Not from the person you found it. And you only lost it because the person who gave it to you decided to take it back, subconsciously. In a moment of poor judgement, of selfishness and smugness.

You cannot blame that person, because they could not possibly know the outcome as people are self obsessed and smug. Had they been more open to your needs, they would have not allowed you to lose it.

If only... God. If only.